i need too, it feels like my whole future depends on it but i am nor skinny

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cuz i cant fuxking stop eating

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all i do is eat

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how does it depend on that if u dont mind me asking

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Cuz i wanna do musical theater and ik that skinny ppl get more jobs

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id also like not feeling so disgustung all the time

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ohh i did that in highschool sadly most of the bigger people did get villain or "funny roles" it wasnt fair

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Yeah exactly

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thats not all there is though but it feels more like luck to have a role of someone who isnt funny for being a fat lady

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hallo! -N

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Like last year i was feeling shit mentally but like i was loosing weight and i was working out and stuff so i was hood physically but now

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idk some times it feels like be happy or be skinny

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and i cant fucking exist anymore

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I just look at myself and feel sick yk

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i was at a party last weekend and i was talking to this girl

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yea body dis morphia maybe

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we had quite a good conversation and i think that she likes me

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all my friends were saying to message her after which i did

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what did you guys talk abt

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however, i dont really have feelings for her cause im depressed

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My whole body just feels wrong, like i feel the fat on my body and it just makes me sick

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or not just because of that

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but i dont really feel attracted to her for some reason

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even tho i did before

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ahh i feel the opposite when i feel my bone it makes me want to throw up

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Im so tired of everything

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i look like a sick Victorian child

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lo

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but i feel like she's a really nice person and if i dont take this opportunity it will pass

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Like ive gained six kg in like the last year

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and i'll regret it

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AND BEFORE THAT I WAS FUCKIMG LOOSING WEIGHT MAN I WASS FUCKING HAPPY BUT I COULNT KEEP THAT UP AND NOW IM A MISERABLE FUCK

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im so busy with school tho i need to catch up loads so i dont really have time to message people and all

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i just want out of this

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i just dont know what to do

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literally all i think about is food im fucking humgry all the time and i dont know why

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i feel a bit bad for not liking her like that

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it might just be the fact im so fucking miserable that i turn tonfood for comfort

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there is another girl who is really toxic and has lots of issues but i find myself more attracted to jer

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i fucking hate my body so much

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