i thought you left

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its not for anything

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just my birthday

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part of me feels like maybe it would be better if I wasn't around anymore because people blame me for everything and they take things out on me and target me

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A countdown to your birthday would not restart.

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but why call it the countdown when its your bday? are you planning something?

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people hate me everywhere and no matter where I go

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its nothing

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birthday that's all

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sweet 16

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i wanna make it good

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I hope that it is good.

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sweet 16, what are your plans that day?

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nothing no plans

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its more of the day before

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that okand

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eoigweihogr

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ANYWAYS

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how come you're a wreck mari?

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I just don't see the point of being around anymore if all I get is hate left and right

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what's wrong?

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its just school stuff

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work overload?

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I don't know why I keep coming back here, I feel like I can type and type but I never actually get anything off my chest. Im just so tired, so lost and I don't know what to do other than rot in my bed

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is everything okay?

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lately ive been using school as an excuse to not think about anything and it kinda backfired on me

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yeah too much work to think about

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oh i'm sorry

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have you done any of it yet or do you have a schedule or order you could do them in?

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and its like 2021 all over again for me

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My senses are failing me. It would be beautiful if I wasn't at risk of falling asleep.

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i have a schedule but i fucked it up

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you should sleep yellow

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you should try going back to the schedule

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it'll be hard if you're behind, but worht it

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I have things to do.

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worth*

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for 4 days and i am ashmaed myself

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such as?

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don't be, it happens to everyone mari

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