trying to further yourself

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i feel like i dont have an identity rn its a very weird place to be

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or like what everyone else does, dulling your senses for a sense of accomplishment

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a day at a time

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I don't either, red

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you mean mindless entertainment?

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MHM

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and not paying attention

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and pretending its all fine

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well i don't pretend it's all fine

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:D

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you have someone that depends on you, so that's something

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but i've always wondered what that would be like

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i love and hate everyone at the same time. i can only exist in extreme self-loathing and extreme narcissism. blech

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toxic positivity

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yeah i know i cant leave yet, i couldnt do that to my sister rn

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sounds like a burden and sometimes it is, but sometimes it's good to feel needed

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yellow, I am unfortunately unable to be that fucking stupid

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i tried

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maybe drugs

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am i a bad person if im trying to get better?

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that's substance use

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toxic positivity is like

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no, you're quite the opposite

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trying to turn everything into a positive

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and ignoring all the negatives

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it's like the "putting on a mask" thing, but not just on the outside

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likely depressed, so changing is hard, takes energy, I know

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yes because you have to be that fucking stupid and idiotic to think that works

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so maybe change one small thing a week or something

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i don't think it works

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of course it doesn't

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thats a good idea purple

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but people do it anyway :D

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it either won't work or you'll just end up being delusional

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slowly, you might start feeling better about yourself

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you dont need to feel obligated to fix or help me btw. i appreciate u just talking to me

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dude my boyfriend is upset with me again and when i asked why he was like "Im not sure yet" LIKE JUST TELL ME

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god

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like

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