guys im in deep trouble

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im really screwed this time

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i messed up so fing bad

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Just remember, not socializing won't kill you. Sticking to your comfort zone until you're ready is fine.

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but i can't ever be "ready" if i don't push myself to be "ready"

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does tubi give me a virus

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ok what is it cyan

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i sh again after almost 6 months of not doing it

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Of course you can push yourself at some point but right now from what you said, you don't seem ready to take the push.

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probably cause of all the bullying

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but mostly it seems cause of negative social interactions i've had in the past

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How do they bully you? verbally? physically?

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i don't really remember

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i want to die

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i had someone threaten they were gonna kill me once

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im a stupid useless person who only upsets everyone around me

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Its not likely they'll ever act on that, dw

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im an asshole but i cant help it

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i know

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actually you can

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honestly it was kinda the adults bullying me mostly

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And try to remind yourself that your past isn't the same as you now. Yes you had negative socializing experiences in the past but that doesnt mean it'll be the same now.

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like being ostracized for wearing gloves

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i have no idea how to be friendly or good because no matter how nice and polite i play no one ever seems happy with it

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or only wearing socks

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i need fucking drugs to be tolerable to the people in my own house

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Thats a stupid thing to bully someone over

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if you've been an ass, you gotta earn peoples trust

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takes time

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or being forced into a lesson about how to wash my hands for some reason? idk it's all a bit blurry now

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ive been as nice as i can for years now

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Thats wild.

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then you're around the wrong people

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Only weiners bully people over shit like gloves

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everyone looks at me weird and i always feel like im in the wrong, i cant tell when i am or not either

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i started taking a voice recorder to school

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Smart

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so i could show my caregiver if something happened

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then don't say stuff unless you're positive it's correct

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maybe im just paranoid or whatever but it doesnt change how much i want to die

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