I hate myself when I'm mad

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why green

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but at the same time i hate him for what he did because he knew how much it would fucking hurt me and others around him

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I turned on some music, hopefully that'll help me calm down... im sorry

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I couldn't think straight or rationally then I couldn't control the way I talk to others

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why are you sorry?

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Okie dokie im heading off to bed. Gn everyone sleep well <3

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ah i see green

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the people who built this either already have precautional mesaures in such case, or assume those to be false claims

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rest easy cyan

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because i feel like im being a bother

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I ended up hurting others

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is that smthn ur working on green?

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yellow u are not a bother

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They blocked me but I didn't mean for what I've said

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It shouldn't be that deep

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so we can just try, if real, saved one, else, we are not the only one sad or guilty of

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but its not about intention, its about impact green

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I can't remember half the things I've said

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if i shoot someone, even if i didnt mean to shoot them they still got shot, its a similer premise

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sometimes i feel bad for talking about whats really bothering me because others are going through so much worse and what I have going on doesnt matter in the end really

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did you apologize green?

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I already have the impact it hurts

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Not yet

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yellow, you are such a kind person and ur problems matter just as much as anybody else

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maybe you should do that green

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thanks

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We met at school activities again but we didn't initiat any contact

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it all depends on the last person who survived, until then, everything is just a matter of scale

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Gosh it's too awkward for me now

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no one ever wants to talk about it though, its been six fucking years and everyone assumes i should be over it

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like trying to find a center point in a space without boundary

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our relationship was complicated, we werent really together but before he left he kissed me and hugged me so tight he popped my back.. he always had the best bear hugs

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i

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👁️👄👁️

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thats sweet to reminisce of i think

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blue I hope you rot in hell

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you

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👁️‍🗨️👄👁️‍🗨️

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before he left though he was skin and bones, not to be mean but, he was a big guy.. he got into some really nasty stuff and he became a skeleton

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