and i can’t even if i wanted to

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i have so much i need to do but im not ready

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bruh at least he has somebody to care for him

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my family fucking told me to die

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and i don’t know how to convince him to get help

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i feel like im so stupid

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it feels like my brain is rotting

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i can hardly think

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he has a physically abusive dad that has encouraged him to attempt suicide

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and his mom didn’t do shit

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no one cares

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nobody did shit i hate them

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my life could have been different if even one person spoke up about it

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they all saw how i live but they dont care

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they like my parents

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and i was always annoying anyways. who cares

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i want to hug him once before he dies i don’t know when he will die but i want to meet him

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yeah fuck it see ya

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i dont want to die i just want it to be different

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i wish i could be there and hold his hand

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but i think if i had a chance to redo it all, it do it exactly the same

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just to screw myself over once more

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he said i actually helped him

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that means the world to me

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fuck i cant even spell

39781 - 

he means the world to me

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im suppose to be writer and i cant even spell

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it feels like all i do is wait

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wait for things to get better

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things change, but its just new scenery. its all the same

39781 - 

every day is the same

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do you remember drinking in the parking lot by the trailhead?

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its like i havent lived a day in my life, and yet time keeps passing by

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i see you for a moent, then the morning comes and it's wasted

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i keep asking myself what am i doing?

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we listen to only the good die young and we laughed about its statement

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but time keeps moving

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it feels so fast, but so slow

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we walked in the same direction, but we both got lost in your angst and my impatience

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i just want to be okay

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