yeah it fucks you up, trying, ut looks lke death

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i am also kinda like triggered by sa

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sometimes

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when i am bad

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I understand that part

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but i feel guilty bc it wasn't rappe

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im an empty shell

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rape*

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i promised everyone i would not sh but i jjust scratched i could not control it

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idc

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you have nothing to feel guilty about, regardless. You weren't in control of the situation

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I know but still

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What triggers me the most,Is the memorys of the aftermath

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like scrubbing yet still feeling dirty

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bc i was 6 I didnt even understand

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yeah i get it

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i wish i ha someone i could really tell everything too, like maybe hire a homeless for $40 and meal and he can hear the crayz shit i cant say

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which is why i hate people who blame victims

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That's an issue to resolve with a therapist

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ikn im 15 but still

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therapy is scam

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therapy is shit

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nah they will tell my parents

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not up for that

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I'm much older than 15 and still have thoughts of the past from since I was a toddler

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my freinds therapist ratted on her for sh and being sa'd

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that wasn't ratting

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I have memories of going to court at 14:p

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;p

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:/

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therapists are required by law to report harm to self or others or thoughts of it

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yeah i had a therapist but i didn't tell her much because i was terrified of getting sent to a psychward or some shit

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I watch what I say, too

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therapists are just eyes for the state honestly, they offer no real help, yeah ive read all the CBT, GJGIDFJISJFIJFT, books. meds fuck you up bad.

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i also dont ever mention anything my parents dnt know about

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help i farted on my cat shes hugging my leg sleeping under my blanket

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meds are how they hook you physically and therapy they hook you emotionally. its their business model.

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like i dont share anyhting they dont know to avoid drama

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maybe a good idea, at least until you become an adult and it's not their business

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yes thats the plan

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