well, i do, but i dont, in my mind i think the consequence, how i feel is nothing

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looping constantly the same ideas and problems and thoughts, as soon as im at a benchmark, its distraction

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i cant tell if i really dont feel strongly about most things anymore or if its an excuse, i know im lazy, i have been for all my time, but now its worse, must be something

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I also have a class but thats in 20 minutes

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oh

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Anyways i think ill go now

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you should get ready

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bye bye

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Bye guyss <3

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:D

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i want to say, oh , im depressed, its the reason, but theres no solution, i must take pills (not an option), i must take therapy (3 month waitlist, costly) , i must work on myself

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what country do u live in purp

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i dont want to work on my self, of course i do, but its difficult, i hate difficult things, this loop i putmyself in, if i just felt strongly about how much i hate this or how much i would like to be

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better, then the action would happen, but only time for distractions, not feelings

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jesus u sound exactly like me

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usa

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oh shit that sucks man. sorry i live in australia i wuz gonna say if u live here u could get a plan w ur GP for free sessions

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we need to both fix our problems and lock-in

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i hope things work out for u tho

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haha thank you, that sounds nice

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it might be covered by insurance, but i have to check more thoroughly. its difficult because i feel inclined to discuss these decisions with family

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oh yeah that would make it difficult huh

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my mother holds my insurance information, it would be difficult to ask for it without reason , oh well, i still have time to think

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okay, i wish for more focus, more focus, less distraction, less distraction, great

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see if you can give another reason to her to ask for it

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its unlikely, i dont think she would disagree, just that she would overthink, shes very stressed overthinker , i think she is averse to the idea but i could push it

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i don't want to be a pain in the ass adn psychanalyze u or some shit but have u considered looking into ADHD

37030 - 

blah, i need to work out or and eat better, that would help too

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even if she's averse its ur mental health, if u want something done abt it u gotta take ur chances

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i havent, not really, only depression

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oh ok fair enough

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haha i know, i have been looking into cheap student option therapy if not to access through insurance

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thats a good idea

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help

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wa pakoy nasugdan gags

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bleh, okay, i dont really feel better, but i must work! no more pushing time

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OKE LOCK IN NA

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have a good day yellow

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you too purp

37030 - 

who the hell are you and what do you need?

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