You dont have to be depressed to vent

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i want validation for my feelings i want someone to tell me that i'm not crazy, that i'm not making excuses, that my issues really are as disabling as they feel

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I didn't expect the muscly guy turned out to be a gay virgin loser. I thought he uad it going for him.

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because when i meet my friends every sunday its like they dont even acknowledge that im there

39413 - 

its like im just a floater friend

39413 - 

they dont invite me to the stuff they do

39413 - 

You should dump them :( you deserve better friends

39419 - 

i want someone to understand that being in a safe home doesn't mean that my trauma didn't just melt away over time and that i can in fact still feel the effects of it 6 years later

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the problem is i really cant :(

39413 - 

i dont want them to view me as

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i want someone to give a name to the horrible things i've done, but not because i want to, that i just end up doing it without realizing, i want to know i can be saved

37030 - 

how do i say this

39413 - 

an attention seeker idk

39413 - 

Try talking to them about it then

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i dont know the word for that

39413 - 

my parents both know i have anxiety issues but neither of them ever took me to see a pyshciatrist to get diagnosed and i'm forever bitter for that

37030 - 

ive tried

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i keep hurting my family telling them i'll change when i don't. there is something wrong with me

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but they don't want to acknowledge it as an actual issue more like it's a moral failing but i know its something to do with my mental i know it

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i mean not really, i just asked my other friend to ask something to them like "hey are you guys and (name here) okay"?

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they said we're okay

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so i dont know whats the problem

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Im sorry that i didnt respond im on my period so i feel kinda ill

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i'm struggling to pick myself up by the boot-straps because there are no boot straps to pick up, and everyone is telling me to but ow can i, i feel like i'm barefoot walking in shards of glass

37030 - 

thats fineeee !!

39413 - 

Maybe try talking more

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please please please i just want someone to understand i feel so alone and trapped in my own mind, who is there to blame but myself

37030 - 

ive kinda also tried that

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they did talk to me for a while

39413 - 

my desire to live outweighs the fact that i am a liability to my family

37030 - 

then they just ignored me again

39413 - 

if i was suicidal it would make things so much easier

37030 - 

instead i'm just floating between passive suicidal ideation and

37030 - 

living one day at a time

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which isnt sustainable but it is what it is

37030 - 

That sucks :( i know its frustrating to be left out in a group

39419 - 

glad i got that off my chest

39413 - 

idk about you but i do better talking to one person rather than a group

39419 - 

me too

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escpecially if that group have already been friends for a while

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