like holy shit everything in this world is so comically flawed

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and i dont want to be a part of it

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its. insane. how nothing ever goes right for me.

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ive been experiencing it my entire life

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Most people like the build up in romance stories because of the "will they or won't they" aspect but I like it because they are learning about each other and getting comfortable and opening up

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like go ahead and fuck up the world and society, just leave me out of it

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we play the lottery of suffering or a chance, for a moment, to make this somehow relavent.

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i think "oh things cant turn out that badly" and the worse thing to happen happens.

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for*

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hello ventscape

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since i was a little kid!!!!!! nothing but awful fucking things.

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but nooooo, there is a stigma around suicide and my body is hardwired against it

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ITS SO FUCKING OBVIOUS MY EXISTENCE IS A BLIGHT ON THE LIVES OF EVERYONE AROUND ME AND YET I REFUSE TO DIE

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this shit is so rigged bro

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god

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I COULD EASILY WALK TO THE TRAIN STATION RIGHT NOW AND END IT ALL BUT I JUSR DONT DO IOT

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i wonder how many people, truly, not just their beliefs, actually had a life worth all of the suffering?

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none

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im just.

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we had a power outage, and my grandmother nearly died when she ran out of oxygen and we didn't realize

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i dont know anymore

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maybe the ones that died upon birth

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FOR WHAT FUCKING REASON I'M CAUSING MY FAMILY A LOT OF ISSUES AS IT IS I COULD JUST DO IT IF I WASNT SUCH A FUCKING PUSSY

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life is pain

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i am disgusted by my mother's reaction

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I mean like being occupied with themselves, getting physical, less like friends

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somehow i am not surprised

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i kinda wish i took that small window of opportunity to drown myself

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nah i think people that died before the age of 5 had the best life, they didnt experience the dark side of life

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i thought. no one would notice for a good hour.

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there is no "how could she?" or "what's wrong with her?" because i already knew

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urgh i dont know

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i already fucking knew, and i didn't do shit to fix it, because i didn't care

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at least the ones born after 1950

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I don't know if what I'm saying makes sense or if I'm crazy for saying it...I just wished romance wasn't so serious and sexual

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maybe i dont even wanna die. i just so desperately want things to be okay.

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i didn't care

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okay enough philosophical yapping

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bye

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this entire bloodline is so shit

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