Try talking to them about it then

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i dont know the word for that

39413 - 

my parents both know i have anxiety issues but neither of them ever took me to see a pyshciatrist to get diagnosed and i'm forever bitter for that

37030 - 

ive tried

39413 - 

i keep hurting my family telling them i'll change when i don't. there is something wrong with me

37030 - 

but they don't want to acknowledge it as an actual issue more like it's a moral failing but i know its something to do with my mental i know it

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i mean not really, i just asked my other friend to ask something to them like "hey are you guys and (name here) okay"?

39413 - 

they said we're okay

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so i dont know whats the problem

39413 - 

Im sorry that i didnt respond im on my period so i feel kinda ill

39419 - 

i'm struggling to pick myself up by the boot-straps because there are no boot straps to pick up, and everyone is telling me to but ow can i, i feel like i'm barefoot walking in shards of glass

37030 - 

thats fineeee !!

39413 - 

Maybe try talking more

39419 - 

please please please i just want someone to understand i feel so alone and trapped in my own mind, who is there to blame but myself

37030 - 

ive kinda also tried that

39413 - 

they did talk to me for a while

39413 - 

my desire to live outweighs the fact that i am a liability to my family

37030 - 

then they just ignored me again

39413 - 

if i was suicidal it would make things so much easier

37030 - 

instead i'm just floating between passive suicidal ideation and

37030 - 

living one day at a time

37030 - 

which isnt sustainable but it is what it is

37030 - 

That sucks :( i know its frustrating to be left out in a group

39419 - 

glad i got that off my chest

39413 - 

idk about you but i do better talking to one person rather than a group

39419 - 

me too

39413 - 

escpecially if that group have already been friends for a while

39419 - 

fml my procrastination has no end, have to distract myself constantly, push everything push everything last minute, fuck me, i have no sense of future

39421 - 

same purple

37030 - 

well, i do, but i dont, in my mind i think the consequence, how i feel is nothing

39421 - 

looping constantly the same ideas and problems and thoughts, as soon as im at a benchmark, its distraction

39421 - 

i cant tell if i really dont feel strongly about most things anymore or if its an excuse, i know im lazy, i have been for all my time, but now its worse, must be something

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I also have a class but thats in 20 minutes

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oh

39413 - 

Anyways i think ill go now

39419 - 

you should get ready

39413 - 

bye bye

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Bye guyss <3

39419 - 

:D

39413 - 

i want to say, oh , im depressed, its the reason, but theres no solution, i must take pills (not an option), i must take therapy (3 month waitlist, costly) , i must work on myself

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