no higher value than the idea of truth, all other things in life can be derived from whether something is true.

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I think all the things i must think, i dont think harshly, i think positive, i do healthy action mostly, not disregard , i eat , i sleep, i think, spend time with other, all i need more is to work out

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is that the solution!? Hahahaha

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Okay, easy, life , easy easy easy easy i said i would do it, then I did not , easy loop, easy, Lying is easy

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MOST MEN ARE RAPISTS........INCLUDING YOUR FATHERS

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what problem are you trying to solve, purple?

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Yellow I remembered having to suck off my teacher to get degree - sarah

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Problem, my avoidance loop, I avoid because it's difficult and because I feel not strongly about anything, I used to be motivated by fear, panic, interest, motivation

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OMG I AM SO SORRY ABOUT THAT CORAL

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CORAL PLEASE STEER CLEAR OF THE RAPIST GENDER

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Used to want to feel good, now its neutral, everything neutral, good is fine, bad is bad, but avoidance is easy, easy easy easy, comes easily, I need to hook myself to something, some goal or pattern,

39435 - 

so you no longer haver those feelings you listed or they are still there but there is another issue?

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I must keep it, i must keep a pattern

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EVEN RESORT TO ELIMINATING THEM

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TORTURE THEM TO A PAINFUL DEATH

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I am not looking for advice or to explain myself, i am tired and not thinking clearly, this is only for my peace of mind

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EVERY MAN SHOULD SUFFER

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distraction comes easy, some way, ican make it difficult, i can make it not appealing, i can make my mind do nothing but what i must do, if just for a moment, anything is good, damn me

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lying is so easy, right now, ill say goodnight, but if ill sleep, i dont know. Ill say, ill wake in four hours, the truth i know will be different. Why? why lie? Even to myself

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its hard, but if youre serious about change, then do it. there are probably some distractions you can control, get rid of them, make it impossible.

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It seems as if peace of mind is more important to me

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Same fucking advice, just do it, I am trying every time, just need to try harder

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I just need to do it

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im sorry about the shitty "do it", but i did give some other adivce.

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Do what

30538 - 

Having really bad anxiety

38005 - 

You have a difficulty reading, i already said I wasnt looking for advice, Im not upset with you, this time is just moving fast for me. fast head

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do anything of value, Instead i loop myself to worthless habits or interest or hobby, no end goal to any of those action

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Part of my safety plan is to tell someone im going to hurt myself so im cheating the system and telling you guys

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ok, im sorry, i did miss that, i hope the best for you.

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I'm shaking and trying to calm down but my chest really hurts

38005 - 

Have u ever tried watching dancing fruit?

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Yes, thanks, I wish you well too, have a good night. I really will sleep. I really will. of course something easy like that I can do. positive thoughts,firststep , hahahaha

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Go somewhere quiet and watch dancing fruit

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I want to tell the guy i like about my attempts and sh just so he knows what he's dealing with but I'm nervous

38005 - 

..there better be a dancing kiwi or i will slap the director.

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He likes me back

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Then dont tell him

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I had an argument with my mom

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If ur nervous about telling him that means ir ashamed of it so dont tell him and just stop doing it

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