the only comfort i get is from when i was younger.

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even then. there was always such a strong. feeling of loneliness. lingering in the background. always.

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the wretched whore will live a life of pain and complain the whole way, woe is me, what did i ever do to deserve this?

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i was so alone growing.

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i had a loving family, i was happy. but so, so, goddamn alone.

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even the best of people are forced out of social pressure and often circumstance to decide whether the lie would be better for the(ir) world/

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shame manifest in bones, she knows what she did, but she can never look at herself because shes a COWARD

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and so am i

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i need to be better :(

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i really need to be better

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it used to be so bad that id hide and start shaking at the sound of someone knocking on our front door

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is the noble lie real? do some lies really make the world better off than the truth? i think so.

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i was always scared he'd find us again

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i think many people who need that purpose in their lives are lying to themselves, in a sort of self preservation.

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what is a lie but a truth in the making? :)

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that they would take me away again

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Hiiii - sarah

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bye-bye ventscape :3c

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"i decided i love fucking trains, they give my life meaning, so i wont blow my fucking brains out"

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even though its near impossible for him to find us, that feelinf still lingers.

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my minds still stuck in the state of, "what if he finds us? what if he finds us?"

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maybe ill always be this way

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if that little girl could see me now

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i dont think she'd recognize me.

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i dont think i recognize her anymore either.

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honestly? i belive that you believe that, but no, i think most peoples "purpose or meaning" are flimsy and a way to cope with they have live in suffering or die, which also scares them.

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i havent felt real for years.

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5 whole years.

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almost, what, six now?

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sacred to live. scared to die. confused apes, assinging the meaning of their life to their favorite tv show

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when does it all stop?

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wheres the relief?

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ive been asking this for years

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i dont ever feel good

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everyday is a repeat of the last

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im so desperate for anything to change

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that i wish for family members to die

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so desperate for change

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so desperate for pain

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just to feel something

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