Do you have a name you use here?

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Tomorrow my classes start at 7 AM

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also yeah

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Ughhhhhh

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it's my fucking birthday and instead of celebrating and feeling better i cant stop crying and idealizing the thought of stabbing myself right now

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hmmmmm

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happy birthday...

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please don't be someone i know

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why don’t you want that?

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i won’t reveal who i am if you don’t want me to

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because then i'm going to fuck another simple thing up

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also i can leave

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i'd rather know who you are

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and no its fine

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i'm overthinking lol

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yes you’re overthinking but i want to know why you think you ruin things

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you mentioned venting and that affected your friend badly

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i feel so fucking disgusting i hate everything about myself and there is no way i can make it better rather than leaving everything and just rot in bed forever

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i'm like midas but instead of turning things into gold i turn them into ashes

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i don’t think anyone can turn things into gold

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i’ve ruined things too

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hell i still blame myself for my parents being abusive and such

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my hyperfixations are the only things that makes me stay alive but how the fuck i can love them when everyone says that they distract me from real things

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that’s what they’re meant to do blue but sometimes it’s too much

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you need to find a balance

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everything is about balance

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im pretty sure it’s the answer to everything

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i think my life has zero balance lmao

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do you have a tag?

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me too yellow

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there is no fucking balance in this world

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yes

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i think things will balance out in the whole scheme of things blue

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looking at everything that has happened over time it’s all 50-50

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is it okay if i know what it is?

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i’m wart, who are you?

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o

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hi!!

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you somehow always manage to do that lmao

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if you’re w i actually saw you in a dream recently

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