im so mad.

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purple is your bf irl or online?

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google docs and google slides were peak 5th and 6th grade when u would sit in the back of class creating stories with your friends for fun

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im a bit older. i didn't have google docs until i was older.

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we created stories with our friends with a pencil and paper

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google hangout was like discord for school it was so awesome back in the day

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yea pencil and paper

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i miss those days

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before canvas

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lol.

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i reset my page

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I have a LOT of poems on google doc s

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lmao

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they're very strange,.

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do u guys remember when you had to make a huge poster and fold it 3 times and show it too the whole class i think like a broshure or smth

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and decorate it

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i did those red

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i was accused of witchcraft by two people lmaoo

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Ah nvm

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Holy shat i just had a dream i was planning to kill myself and my brother was pushing me to do it

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Then i had a nightmare that i had a c- in one of my classes 😭

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so nobodys in here since past 19 mins

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so peaceful

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lalalalala

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everything is actually horrible right now.

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i m freeeeeeeeee

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i feel like i should die

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oh

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I miss being busy

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the inner voices keep whispering "they hate you. they all hate you. youre a big joke to them all"

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I used to see my friends weekly outside of school, i havent been out downtown or through the village in months

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I know theyre just busy but it feels like im not even their friend anymore, like im not even high enough in their priorities to spend time with me

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I hate being the last choice

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And i keep spending my fridays, saturdays, sundays alone and my siblings who are both younger than me are out so much more than me

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"you should be scared of them. or you ll be harrassed humiliated and killed by them" "fear them! you are weak!"

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Ill doomscroll and watch youtube and sitcom clips until the days over and suddenly its 8pm, i have homework to do for monday and i havent seen anyone all day

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I cant even play games without distraction anymore

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"you cant stand up against them. you're too stupid and weak. they are powerful. theyll all beat you down to dirt"

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And i want to spend time with my friends, especially woth how shit the world is right now. What if i dont get to tell them how much i need and care about them?

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Especially if i fuck them over by accident or something

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