Part of me wants to end my life but i dont want to hurt them

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I dont want to leave the alone

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i had a great life

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i had a great childhood

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im so tired of this

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My mom is great and nice but she is scary and my dad is kind but i can't trust him

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why am i so upset its all fake its not real

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Mental illness is like that red dont blame yourself

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but at the same time i could just be repressing it

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Hi abby :)

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hi- evv

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Im only alive to serve them

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what if the mental hospital screws everything up

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what if im hurt there

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why am i alive

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I have no other point to life

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i know the staff wouldnt do that but

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i hate her sm

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ogghg mym fogod

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im so fucking terrified but like its all internal

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Well you gotta do something, take a risk

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I keep having nightmares about everyone around me dying and its all my fault but i cant do anything to fix it

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on the outsidei m jsut crying and my ahnds are ocld

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this is so bad

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everyone is alive, and nothing can help, except for music, it always helps.

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i was actually getting better and now i just took a hit and ive been getting worse since august

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Mmight be a good risk aftr all

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or masterbation

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i want to die but i need too live for my little siblings mental health

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ive spoken to my mom about feeling like shit but she keeps saying its correlated to my period like no girl im sorry i am literaly fucked in the brain

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I dont feel like im doing enough in life

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my mom hates me so wtv

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cant even word it right

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Red,my mom said the same thing

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she says ily to my friends more than me

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we're scared

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i dont knwo

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