Sometimes is better to be hated for who you are than loved for what youre not

35737 - 

i dont fear that ill be hated i fear that people will just not know what ot do with me for the second time

12502 - 

But yeah i get the sentiment im also mentally ill and stigmatized in my fam

35737 - 

i gotta get diagnosed but idk how- like i told my doctor i think i have anxiety and arfid & nothing ever happened

35734 - 

I don't want this you're right

35736 - 

I wish i had talked to her

35742 - 

The heck is arfid

35739 - 

I dont wanna hurt anyone

35736 - 

arfid is basically just picky x10

35734 - 

ive already been told by my mom (who has sicne apologized on multiple occassions) that she felt like she was losing her daughter when i came out to her as trans

12502 - 

Oohhhh thats kinda real but idk if I have that

35739 - 

dont want to end up in a similar situation all over again

12502 - 

I was feared for having intrusive thoughts my psychiatrist disclosed (and boke my trust) but eventually it felt better to let it out

35737 - 

like as in picky eating

35734 - 

Youre in pain and miserable purple, but one day youll be better

35737 - 

I want to remember more from when i was little but i am afraid of what happend

35741 - 

what???? i thought psychiatrists kept things confidential

12502 - 

Havinf a social anxiety disorder is so fureakin cool 😝

35739 - 

fufuuffck

12502 - 

Get another psycholigist. Dont stick with one that wont listen.

35737 - 

Sometimes its better to not know

35742 - 

im already terried of my psychiatrist

12502 - 

hes just there for my medicine at that point

12502 - 

Theres always a pcyhologist willing to listen

35737 - 

i suspect anxiety, arfid, depression, adhd, autism, & maybe anorexia

35734 - 

i know but im scared

12502 - 

and i haven topened up to a professional ever

12502 - 

Do things scared, eventually youll feel bettwr

35737 - 

last time i tried it was a terrible counselor who was just befriending me and it makes me really fucking upset looking back at it

12502 - 

She'll never call me again

35742 - 

like i genuinely just hate the memory so much

12502 - 

Just bad everywhere

35736 - 

cant even stand it getting brought up

12502 - 

I'm dead to her

35742 - 

I wish i had been better

35742 - 

wish i had told her

35742 - 

Yeah ive been betrayed hy psycholigst in the past. It suxks it hurts but you gotta keep trying

35737 - 

Im so bored

35739 - 

she told me i was her favorite

12502 - 

Noe im diagnosed and have better tools to navigate my life with

35737 -