ill probably use an app on my phone for it

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physical journals just add stress because of family even if they totally respect our privacy

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not sure he even cares anymore

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anyways i js wanted to say that, im outta here bye guys -comet

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bye comet!

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also, im sure he somewhat cares

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somewhat?

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and if he doesnt care, then he wasnt a true one

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he forgot i exist until i messaged him

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and thats valid, a lot of people use digital journals because of the trend within households that dont respect privacy

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just had one time where mom went through somth not realizing it was personal while cleaning and got concerned. guess its just a lingering paranoia

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by somewhat, i mean they care but not enough to make the effort to always talk to u

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i had a best friend in school and she moved away

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i guess a comforting thing is if im worrying about faking then at least i dont have bad intentions

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i tried to make the effort to talk to her, she didnt return it

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so she cared when we knew each other, but once she moved, she didnt even try

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thats what i mean by somewhat

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3 of my friends moved away and the only one who lives in the same state as me doesnt talk to me

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sorry if i made it sound confusing

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if youre worried about the idea that you could be faking it, chances are you arent. its a normal human reaction to fear the idea that we're doing something for the wrong intentions

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Hahahaha how do i get more brain damage

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im sorry about that coral :(

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*:(

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my life collasped when school started

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yeaaaagh. thankfully i had the same experience of doubt over my gender identity so i have something to bounce my experience off of fear wise

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i hope you can get the help you need someday, im thankful that youre willing to talk about this online, youre very strong for that

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found out my moms a psychopath

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found out why i dont have a father

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how so if u dont mind me asking??

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clears throat

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she was abusive to my half siblings (sibling from a diff mother) and to my dad

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she drank alot

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i think that talking about it and trying to make a safe space and be accepting to my mind is my goal right now so thank you for your compliments i think is the righrt wording

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not a lot of people are capable of speaking up about their problems and its a product of the environment they live in usually. so dont feel as though you need to rush your way through talking

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oh i see

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she destroyed my siblings apartment when they were my age

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she knocked over everything

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threw glass at my father

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she lies about everything

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shes manipulative

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