Because im autistic, am always paranoid from trauma, dont trust anyone think people hurt me, hallucinate, depression and anxiety i live from pills

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I lie a lot

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I dont take any pills

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And if i dont kms ill just go back to hospital

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I dont trust it

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They are out to hurt me

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Is there a psychiatrist you can talk to about adjusting your medication if you don't feel like it's helpful?

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Before my pills i couldnt leave the house i was catatonic

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Now with pills i can at least shower and change my clothes and talk to people

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They are gonna kill me

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Im wasting

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They are gonna hurt me

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They arent coming yet

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Yellow i feel like that too i hate it

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Yellow do you need police?

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They havent seen me

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I need to go

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Nobody is less than anybody else for being on medication.

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I wanna go to america like my rich friends

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Guys how tf do i deal with wmotionally dependent ppl in my life im so tired of this ahit

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Honesty

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Why?

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America kinda sucks tbh

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All my life ive been used as an object for others to project themselves onto i dont evwn feel like a real person

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THAT IS SO REAL OMG

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I dont think ive ever felt like a person

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I feel that

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Ok, so it is very hard to do but you need to start vocalizing your needs to those around you, and not that haha we can do this if you want but really hey i want to do this or i dont want to do that

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And boundries, hard boundries

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And america is also better for autistic people

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People will either love me and think im perfect or hate me and see my like rhe devil incarnate for standing up for myaelf

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Yeah ig i gotta do that

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Biggest problem is my mom tho

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I don't know about that, maybe it's a little better than other countries but Autistic people are often prevented from doing lots of things here like certain jobs and adopting people

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My mom was the hardest too

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The times i stood my ground on my boundaries she threw a tantrum and threatened to go through my phone and notebooks

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She always takes everything so personally its exhausting

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It is hard to stand up to someone who is your provider, the key is a proper escape plan. If you can get a job you can start with that.

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I didnt ask for any of this shit i just wish ppl wpuld leave me alone

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Real, people can be so pushy sometimes

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