Its so hard not to want to die

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I think i spent close to $600 ish or more on them in the year

32421 - 

defensive can also be good

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i dont really expect to be normal i just mean i wish i wasn't literally developmentally stunted. it justs feels so weird

6193 - 

and it was never good enough for them

32421 - 

Its better to be defensive than to get hurt yk.

32355 - 

Lessons, green. Don't dole out money again

23783 - 

Unfortunately it gets in the way of daily life sometimes

32355 - 

purp, you still have time to make something of yourself

23783 - 

Im done spoiling partners till they can prove they arent here for my money and actually like me for me

32421 - 

Like when I start squeezing a water glass too hard and "pop"

32355 - 

i will make something of myself. i just hope i learn to balance the obstacles i experience in life in a way that i can withstand

6193 - 

i lowkey miss the emo highschool seniors that i always see around school

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bro they were so cool

27948 - 

Green, not sure I would ever spoil them. YOU should be the one being spoiled

23783 - 

even they were scene or emo

27948 - 

I think you can, purp. Just going to take time and determination

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hard work

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i'll cross the bridge when i get to it

6193 - 

but worth it in the end

23783 - 

on top of that peachie still wants to do our gift exchange but idk,

32421 - 

exactly

23783 - 

If peachy is a problem child, don't do the gift crap

23783 - 

green you do what is within your own boundaries and what makes you comfortable in that situation

6193 - 

also what yellow said

6193 - 

My home life taught me a lot about self defense. I know how to escape a moving car, get out of a chokehold and beat the hell out of people with blunt objects.

32355 - 

I learned a phrase" you teach people how to treat you"

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And i enjoy fantasizing about people dying, or rather being murdered.

32355 - 

read that and think about it

23783 - 

every time i look at my parents I imagine them dead, beaten to death, and I fucking enjoy it.

32355 - 

fantasy is better than actually acting on thoughts like that

23783 - 

You might be right the gift exchange is probably a bad idea

32421 - 

green, it is

23783 - 

I would act on it if someone ever touched me violently again.

32355 - 

As i've said before, one more slap and they're toast with red jelly on top.

32355 - 

her gift box is like work $100-$200 where i have no clue if she actually got me anything

32421 - 

someone doesn't treat you right, you have a right to walk away

23783 - 

its not an exchange if you dont get anything

6193 - 

My father is scrawny, I could take him down easy if I aimed for the core and head with a weapon.

32355 - 

exactly

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