and then i started talking to another girl a few months later which was last month now she broke things off

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sometimes on here, it's the place to vent in anger and say hateful things and I get that too

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goodnight everyone, i wish you all the best

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cause she realized she couldn’t do relationships and lead me on

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you're right blue, you have two minutes! lol

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g'night blue

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night blue

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my life just sucks,

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id mever wish my life even on my worst enemy

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green, you know you have it in you to make it better

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recently i have had to learn to be more gentle with things and people because.. well, I get pissed off and squeeze things too hard.

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meeting old friends is just awkward expecially when y'all ended on bad terms

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sometimes getting pissed off isn't a bad thing

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Ive been trying so hard to hold friendships and be there for people, but then they turn around and treat me horribly

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they treat you bad, you find new friends. Hard as it may be

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and when you try to get past the awkward shit it will always be ackward

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that's entirely their own fault for being shitty bottom feeders green

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the girl lead me on for 2 months acting like she loved me

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then it's time to let go

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oh shit

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bottom feeders, I like that

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green what was the girls name?

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Its also really hard to feel pain bc my mind and body are relatively detached so i cant always tell.

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I've become detached just so I don't get hurt anymore

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green?

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Peachie is what she went by

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I don't know if that's healthy or not

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i wish i wasnt set back in the technical sense i would've liked to be able to function entirely normally in my adulthood

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Same yellow.

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ah ok phew

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that was close

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Being in a relationship as a childhood torture survivor is so fucking hard

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I usually get used money wise, emotionally,physically etc

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im hurting him by being in pain

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the poly i was in it was always money this money that,

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And im not allowed to make it stop

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I don't think anyone is entirely normal in adulthood

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ive never even understood how others could use people its so horrible and alien to me

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Adults who i used to trust pushed me around a lot as a kid. so naturally I turned myself into a defense machine.

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same purple

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