i was groomed for a few yesrs by a family member when i was younger ive been sa by 4 different people (different times of my life)

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im sorry to hear that

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ill brb, i need a snack

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but it feels like theres no escape from him

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hes done so much to me that i fear my life sometimes what if he just snaps one day

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on top of that my friends who always want to hangout bail last min lately and jist get my hopes up for nothing

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im back

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ive had friends drop me out of nowhere after they swore i could vent to them and they wouldnt judge me for whats happened to me

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im sorry

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but its always lies and broken promises

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im sorry im bad at comforting

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im tired of looking for friends who cant even leep their word im tired of dating people who just use me in some way or hurt me

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if i was any good two people would be alive rn

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real

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blue, that's not on you at all, don't even go there

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I wouldnt blame yourself

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sometimes when your so far gone nothing cant stop you

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can*

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maybe

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is this place decent right now

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trust me blue, ive tried ending my life, nothing in that moment when i tried could of stopped me

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exactly

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thank you

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if they were truly going to do it, they were. If not, they are still around

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majority of ppl don't broadcast that they are in the process of it

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they just do it

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Exactly

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i dont think anyone could have stopped me when i attempted either

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i dont know why im so caught up about it

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When i attempted i messaged one person i loved them and tried to od,

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at first green said he/she felt the water, then turned around and said on a bridge and wouldn't go to the water

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that was a red flag

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how was it a red flag?

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because the person was never near the water in the first place

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oh?

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i didnt realize

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Were they talking about jumping?

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said they felt the water

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after a minute, then said on the bridge and talking jumpiing

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after I asked them to put their feet in the water and feel the sand

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