green what was the girls name?

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Its also really hard to feel pain bc my mind and body are relatively detached so i cant always tell.

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I've become detached just so I don't get hurt anymore

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green?

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Peachie is what she went by

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I don't know if that's healthy or not

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i wish i wasnt set back in the technical sense i would've liked to be able to function entirely normally in my adulthood

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Same yellow.

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ah ok phew

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that was close

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Being in a relationship as a childhood torture survivor is so fucking hard

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I usually get used money wise, emotionally,physically etc

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im hurting him by being in pain

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the poly i was in it was always money this money that,

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And im not allowed to make it stop

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I don't think anyone is entirely normal in adulthood

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ive never even understood how others could use people its so horrible and alien to me

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Adults who i used to trust pushed me around a lot as a kid. so naturally I turned myself into a defense machine.

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same purple

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Its so hard not to want to die

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I think i spent close to $600 ish or more on them in the year

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defensive can also be good

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i dont really expect to be normal i just mean i wish i wasn't literally developmentally stunted. it justs feels so weird

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and it was never good enough for them

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Its better to be defensive than to get hurt yk.

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Lessons, green. Don't dole out money again

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Unfortunately it gets in the way of daily life sometimes

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purp, you still have time to make something of yourself

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Im done spoiling partners till they can prove they arent here for my money and actually like me for me

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Like when I start squeezing a water glass too hard and "pop"

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i will make something of myself. i just hope i learn to balance the obstacles i experience in life in a way that i can withstand

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i lowkey miss the emo highschool seniors that i always see around school

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bro they were so cool

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Green, not sure I would ever spoil them. YOU should be the one being spoiled

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even they were scene or emo

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I think you can, purp. Just going to take time and determination

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hard work

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i'll cross the bridge when i get to it

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but worth it in the end

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on top of that peachie still wants to do our gift exchange but idk,

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