relapsing into what white?

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ive been self harming

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oh

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im sorry to hear that

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relapsing is normal

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I told myself i could stay clean but this year sucks

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atleast in my experience

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I think im too far into this language study to stop now. im commited

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did i help two people's death today

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could i have helped them live

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rip green, rip purple

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i feel so guilty

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Its hard for me to even talk to others cause im just a burden

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real

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and when someone says i can vent then they realize how fucked my life has been and disappear

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ill listen

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i have 30 minuted until bedtime

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did i really kill two people

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indirectly ofc

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i was groomed for a few yesrs by a family member when i was younger ive been sa by 4 different people (different times of my life)

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im sorry to hear that

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ill brb, i need a snack

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but it feels like theres no escape from him

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hes done so much to me that i fear my life sometimes what if he just snaps one day

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on top of that my friends who always want to hangout bail last min lately and jist get my hopes up for nothing

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im back

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ive had friends drop me out of nowhere after they swore i could vent to them and they wouldnt judge me for whats happened to me

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im sorry

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but its always lies and broken promises

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im sorry im bad at comforting

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im tired of looking for friends who cant even leep their word im tired of dating people who just use me in some way or hurt me

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if i was any good two people would be alive rn

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real

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blue, that's not on you at all, don't even go there

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I wouldnt blame yourself

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sometimes when your so far gone nothing cant stop you

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can*

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maybe

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is this place decent right now

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trust me blue, ive tried ending my life, nothing in that moment when i tried could of stopped me

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