shes going to boardin school in hawai'i which is 12 hours away from me and 6 hours behind

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just a few more weeks just a few more weeks

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still has a secret to control you though, right?

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guys, one of my friends saw scars on my arms and she genuinely looked concerned for moment but then she legit said "if ur gonna do that atleast do it on ur legs. no one can see it that way"

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idek how to respond to that..

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She doesn't but she's going to figure it out

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What kind of secret makes you that afraid of her?

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I have very conservative parents

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ah youre being anxious then. it hasnt even happened.

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Oh, I see.

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And i am male just not a traditional male

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i

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i'd be disowned by my entire family

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and the worst part ab it is that i have a MASSIVE crush on her 🥲

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im sorry to hear that cyan

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but scars are nothing t be ashamed of just proof that you've grown

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do you hate them? truly?

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She used to be my best friends

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and now?

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ik, im not scared of showing them, i js don't want my parents or to get reported at school

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*parents to know

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but i can't take it i haven't had over 4 hours a night im in highschool and i manage 2 sports and online classes

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why would you get reported?

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I should've let go of the edge, I should've...

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Would you be baccaracted idk how to spell it even if it happened in the past?

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im just saying if you want it to be less impactful and you think she will be believed, you need to go on the offensive.

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Why didn't I? Why are you so scared, me?

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I thought everything will be alright...

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i know i know i just have so many secrets that puts me in danger

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I fooled myself all night that day...

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cus my school has kept a close eye on me ever since they found out i had depression in the past, but its rlly annoying bc i cant even email my friends w/out them being conerned ab a joke

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its only a few more weeks

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Im so sorry cyan

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HAIII -Spade

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i hope your situation gets better

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ty, i hope urs does 2

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hi spade

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how're ya, bud?

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thank you dude

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yw!

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