wdym by crazy? -rie

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i think im getting back into the same mindset i was in about this time last year

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Pretty much just crazy, theyre all different flavors of it

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you have to work at things, just like others, struggle, just like others

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Yes I fucking know and that is why I am force to suffer for the rest of my life.

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i used to not even count my calories i just wouldnt eat

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not many have it easy from the beginning

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and i lost so much weight

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blue, idk, but in my impression, you don't seem like someone with npd -rie

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im finally going to do it again

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you aren't forced to suffer. You have the ability to change your mindset

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im counting my calories now

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and i dont know why because i usually get really scared of them

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but then when they go away i dtart to miss them again

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there's even self help books and websites to help you

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I heard that before cyan I have tried so many fucking therapies and medicine and still can’t change mindset

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but you have to put in the work

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And again I can’t feel what they call positive emotions

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ill force myself to eat more so my metabolism doesnt get fucked

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itll be fucked up anyway

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green, please don't overexert yourself

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if you can't feel positive emotions, then depression might be in that head somewhere

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it has been fucked up from last time

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Cyan you don’t know how much work I have done how much money I spend how much therapies and medicine etc

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Oh darn i hareky ate today chat

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*barely

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you're right, I don't know

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ive just lost my appetite again

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Years of work.

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its gotten easier for some reason

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I suffered like this since I remember 4 or 5 years old

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and i only wanna get down to 47kg not any lower

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purple,yeah its not wrong to feel contradicting emotions to someone

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There's new therapies coming out and old therapies

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like last time

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maybe lower if i get to it

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ECT?

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idk

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I mean im just confused man

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Electroconvulsive therapy? Tried it?

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