Np! -Spade

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But they are everywhere lacking empathy and making me suffer and I can’t even die when I want

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also ik this is rlly bad, but sh has js kinda become a normal to me now. Like im used to it hurting or smth like that??

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Spade have you been online often this year? I haven't seen you much this year.

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Yea i get that, it can also be though to get out of the habbit but i suggest if u get sad or like wanna do it try to distract urself, like ripping or crumpling paper or newspaper -Spade

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Wish I could just feel sad like a normal person and convince myself I am evil

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I have, or recebtly ive been trying -Spade

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Instead of always feeling constant rage and anger

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Recently*

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i might try that, ty!

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Bye.

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Np cyan! Just remember that even though it may be tempting try and hold urself back like what good will i get out of this? Or mabey i can find somthin else to calm me down or like that -Spade

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Bye yellow! -Spade

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and my friend who i have a big crush on, saw my scars that i usually hide with bracelets, and she genuinely seemed concerned but told me "if ur gonna do that atleast do it on ur legs, no one will see

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How people even get sad? I wish I could feel it atleast my anger may go away

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Wish I didn’t feel like I was a good person. Everyone calls me bad what only makes it worse

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im not sure how to take it bc she's dealt with bad mental health too and used to sh, but it genuinely sounded like she didnt care

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I wish I could feel like the evil person i am according to most pekole

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*people

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Yikes- that must feel a bit bad, another thing u can do is just try and stop now or not do it as much and if someone asks about the scars u can say its from a tree i was climbing (if u somtimes do tha

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T, i just made that up as and example)

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Or just say sorry and try to ignore them. -Spade

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People normally are afraid of someone killing them. Not me I wish I was that lucky

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almost*

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Well dont say sorry- thats just somthing I tend to do in that situation

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I could even bully gang members and they won’t kill me. That is how fucking unlucky I am. Just constant suffering for me then

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Unless u want to -Spade

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I AM SO FUCKING UPSET ABOUT THIS THIS IS SO FUCKING STUPID WHAT THD FUCK IWAS SO EXCITSD AND NOW IM NOT HSHSHSHSHZJ FUCK.

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Coral whats wrong? -Spade

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I cant get over my crush. Ive crushed on him for over 3 years

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Or do u wanna talk about it -Spade

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It is not fucking fair those who don’t want to die and are happy die and I that have been suffering constantly for years has to survive everything

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how does this work?

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Mabey u can try and distracting urself or try and be friends with them? -Spade

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is this directed to me?

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Wdym? -Spade

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Purple it is a vent site. It is not necessarly directed to you

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oh ok thanks red

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Ima go, -Spade

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i meant blues question on distracting myself and trying to be friends with him

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