l have trouble balancing between the too much and none at all I think

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I already know im gonna fuck up again next time

96305 - 

why are you so sure you're going to mess up?

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Ive messed it up every other time, pushing him away, continuing to be this isolated fuck

96305 - 

oh wow I understand. it can be tempting to close yourself off sometimes

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Hes smart as hell and actually has a life

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I think you should open up

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to him

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Meanwhile im doing nothing but my self destructive bullshit

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Hes leaving for Italy tomorrow

96305 - 

well why do you have trouble opening up?

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oh, when will he be back?

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A little less than a month i think

96305 - 

well that's not too long, I'm sure you can do it

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I cant really fix myself in that time

96305 - 

you dont have to fix yourself, just show him who you are

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Who i am isnt even who he thinks hes talking too

96305 - 

well maybe its time to show him the truth

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it does no good to keep hiding

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It does if the truth is just going to mess this up

96305 - 

you can open up little bits at a time

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Hes going off for collage and shit in like a year or so

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And i dont have my kife together at all

96305 - 

who says you need things together? no one is without flaws

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I just want to fix these things before i hurt him whth it

96305 - 

I dont think you'd hurt him

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I dont know how to keep doing this

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well you just try your best, and show him you're trying

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God i hope this doesnt end badly

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I'm sure it wont purple

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Thanks

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if you can find it in yourself to be open I think it will work out

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and no problem

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For now at least i think i need to crash

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Everything hurts

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Like muscle psin?

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Everything

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I know that feeling. what's going on green?

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I'm so tired

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I want to disappear

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