I would toe it tight so i wouldnt be able to breathe

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That seems the least dirty

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Itd be a little painful

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I saw some method threads on site "Sanctioned Suicide"

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But i dont want my mom to see me bloody

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I cant read those

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I was thinking of headshot

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It makes me sad

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headshot and Sodium Nitrite

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Ive thought about buying a gun and shooting myself but i dont want my mom to see that

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If i die i want my mom to be able to have an open casket funeral

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I was thinking of body being burned

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Sometimws i dont want to die and sometimes i really do

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Its so confusing

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yeah

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its weird

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And i feel like everyday i just get worse

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at least for me

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And i want to get therapy but im too scared

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it seems so expensive to me

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And my friends want me to get bet5er but i cant

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Usually insurance csn cover it

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But not mine

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and I think I reached "the wall" with a topic I could safely talk there

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Wdym

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because I wouldnt want to feel afraid of therapist calling some people

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because of topic of suicide

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Ah

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Well you can say it here

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if I cant talk freely, it doesnt feel like being honest

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Right

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and its like suppresion

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I absolutley cant tell a therapist what i think

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I would probably get angry by that alone

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Its really sick and it scares me

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Like really bad

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so it would be countering the whole point of therapy

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I guess

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Because for some reason i feel like id deserve it

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And im so scared ill do it one day

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