im so so scared

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it feels so stupid too

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holy fuck

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i feel like im going to vomit

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and cry until my face burns

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Im here again

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Hey

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Hi?

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I guess nobody is here

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i hate this feeling

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no im here

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hi

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i think im going yo be sick

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whyyy

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I have no idea how to explain what happened to me because it feels like one of those things that should just never happen

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So ill just start with the whole story

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okay

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why am i like this

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Im an immigrant. I was raised by my eldest brother and eldest sister

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i want to die

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My mother died at my birth. My father died in the war.

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My brother got us to America.

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same blue

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ok green im listening

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Basically I fucking hate my brother. And people say I'm selfish because he did so much for us.

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But he did it for himself. He just happened to take me along.

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I amn't smart. my gpa was shit. But I was saving enough money for signing because I have a lot of chance to getting into soccer.

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A lot of scouts talked to me before. And so I took loans from my friends and I sold stuff here and there and worked small jobs.

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We live in an impoverished area and it's pretty sketchy. And so I felt bad because I know my family really needed that money

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But I still really wanted to go pro and all my problems would be solved, and me and my sister Hala could get out of this shithole

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wtff

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But one day my brother found the plastic bag with all the money and waited for me to come home. When I did he beat the hell out of me and even Hala looked ashamed. Said if I wanted to hide money

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is someone here?

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I should make it like a man.

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Yeah.

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ru real?

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Uh, yes?

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Hello?

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okay sorry u can continue venting

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yea im here

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