tbh when I dissociate I have an urge to slit my throat and see if I die and go wait no bad idea

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dissociation suucks

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Thats so real my intrusive thoughts r so bad

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It does i hate it sm

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Last year i was stuck in constant derealization for like 8 months 💔

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yeah, I try using touch more than my other senses for grounding techniques because it usually gets fuzzy

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Yea sometimes breathing can work better for me

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I had it for maybe a year awhile back but luckily last year the longest it usually was luckily a week or so

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usually a week*

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Thats good !! Im literally so glad to be out of that lol

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reeal I'm personally fuzzy on the edges but not impulsice

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impulsive

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Yea and i dont rly have it that much but today i was drawing for like 7 hours straight so im a little disoriented 😭

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Stuff like that causes me to dissociate so bad idek

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lmaao, I had drawn like one guy 7-8 times today throughout the day

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Lol 😭

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my poor pen is running out of ink

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Oh damn i do digital

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I have a sketch journal im trying to use

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Im so sry i gtg but ty for talking to me that made mefeel better

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bye!!

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there is so much wrong and going wrong with this world

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i genuinely question how i've not killed myseld yet

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because i don't have hope

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i think i've not killed myself because of my family

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and how much i love them and would hate to traumatise them

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and that's not going anywhere anytime soon

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it saddens me

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about how i'm so stuck in a world that's full of things tending away from good

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i want other people to be happy, healthy, safe

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but to do that is such a monumental task

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and it pains me to think i might get to a point where i only think individualistically

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because as much of a selfish person i am

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i don't want people to become unhealthy, unsafe and/or unhappy

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because i don't want that for myself

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sometimes this world with all it's evil

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it makes me wonder if i should indulge in it

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cause everyone else is

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but then i wonder if there's a heaven

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only for me to remember that the heaven i was taught exists has already been created on earth by the wealthiest. for them and their people.

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