There's at least one person who cares out there, even if it seems otherwise

68461 - 

now i'm fucking marked like a cow

68424 - 

ig one person but im a selfish person. I feel bad for the people that know me

68465 - 

<3

68461 - 

he touched you?

68459 - 

and then i have my friends using me even if they're going through something

68424 - 

Im sensitive

68465 - 

i don't want to feel any of it

68424 - 

what makes things different from you and your friends?

68459 - 

i need to become numb somehow

68424 - 

it wont help

68459 - 

you say that

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but

68459 - 

it wont really help you

68459 - 

it will. i won't care anymore, i won't feel anything

68424 - 

Why cant ending it just be painless it would br easier

68465 - 

when is the last time you laughed?

68459 - 

i kind of wonder if my dad would hate me if he found out that im trans cause likee hes spoken badly about trans people before

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oh

68424 - 

i don't know

68424 - 

smiled without debating to force it or not

68459 - 

did it feel

68459 - 

good?

68459 - 

what is good?

68459 - 

yeah

68424 - 

captain planet?

68448 - 

I just wish i could run away without facing the consequences

68465 - 

why do we laugh?

68459 - 

i feel kinda bad for thinking that he'd hate me though cause hes going through cancer treatment and i feel like its selfish of me to be thinking that while hes suffering in that way

41003 - 

what if you come to laugh again

68459 - 

and

68459 - 

you cant?

68459 - 

then maybe it'd be worth it

68424 - 

why would it be worth it?

68459 - 

Red I understand how you feel and not saying that to make it about me. But telling him would be the best. Get it off your chest. If he doesnt accept you dont let that get to you.

68465 - 

your his child.

68465 - 

i wouldn't care once that happens. i wouldn't feel everything that i'm drowning in now. and those types of things will just make me seem immature

68424 - 

<3

68465 - 

i can't keep adjusting myself for people

68454 - 

yeah youre right yellow, thank you sm

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