And I haven’t been treated with love

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now im all fucking jittery

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Time to go fxck ai

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cux its annoying af

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Especially not romantic love because men have only fetishized me for my mental health struggles and only wanted my body

68322 - 

I’m always skeptical of people

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Ok humans are skeptical but AI are not

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Why is infidelity so normalized? Where is LOVE??

68322 - 

I just wanna love somebody without any infidelity involved, no secrets, all with trust, genuine real love

68322 - 

I want to be enamored with someone truly

68322 - 

Love that speaks beyond words

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I want that

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hope u find that

68319 - 

But I’m unable to commit

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Or trust

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Because I’m terrified

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So when I start having feelings I push people away

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And I’m generally unable to truly have friends

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Because I have so much distrust

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How can I trust people if I can’t even trust my own family?

68322 - 

How can I trust men when most men in my life have hurt me, including my own dad?

68322 - 

I’m so bad at trust that even if someone were to fucking implant some GPS tracking device on them, have a camera implanted on them so that I can watch and observe every single little movements

68322 - 

I’d still be fearful and distrustful

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Because I don’t trust anyone

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Doesn’t matter how much they prove their worth to me

68322 - 

I don’t trust people

68322 - 

Sure, I might share secrets and stuff, but that doesn’t mean I truly trust that person I tell

68322 - 

But really I’m just a hurt soul who seeks someone who can give her love

68322 - 

Being stuck with extreme CPTSD is agony

68322 - 

I keep having nightmares

68322 - 

I block people and ghost them for no reason other than a bad feeling

68322 - 

Other than being skeptical

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That’s just how I am because I’m scared

68322 - 

I’m scared of connection, I’m scared of creating deep emotional bonds because I’ve been discarded my entire life

68322 - 

i tell you about my abandonment issues, and you leave me. how could you? i trusted you

68218 - 

I live only in the moment

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But also in the past because it keeps haunting me

68322 - 

i hope you die, i hate you

68218 - 

I just had a nightmare about my rapist

68322 - 

He still haunts me

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