i think i'm one of those people who think they don't mask when in reality i've not been aware i'm doing it

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and its hard because he wasn't like that, everytime i make a comment he says a remark that sounds like he is being snarky

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🤫🐄💩😋👨🏿‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏿

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honestly i don't know if i'm getting better

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there were some points i thought i was

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do you feel you can reply but dont to the snarky comments?

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and now everything just seems to be spiraling again

67885 - 

that's ohk, it's hard to recognize at first purple

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oh yeah absolutely

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people owe me so many apologies but it feels so selfish to say

67885 - 

I understand being in a depressed state and I know he is but everytime i say a normal thing he sometimes spirals and makes fun of me

7516 - 

i'm kind of putting the pieces together

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especially due to how i was the one apologizing in the first place when i shouldn't have been

67885 - 

maybe he's tone-deaf green

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lol

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whenever i used to get home from school/education, i'd always be extremely worn out and like, unable to function

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exdicc? "are you a lil girl bro?" lmao

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i think that was me suffering the consequences of masking all dya

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tay... tay......

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cyan.

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but that's just a theory i have

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....

67885 - 

masking can do that

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i can't help but think about the time he made me cry and their were witnesses

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i miss them

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i think if i can learn to ignore and become immune to people opinions of me then i can get a lot lot more energy back in my life

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i miss myself too

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i miss her too

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he tells me comments like, "wow you take so long to do this.."

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that's the hard part though

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and the part i'm stuck on

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I wouldn't care if it was other people but he is the older brother of mine and it hurts mire

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im not sure if he has bipolar disorder

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he is undiagnosed

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bumbumbum

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thank you for your advice and listening to me blue

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can anyone see me. :)

67885 - 

he acts nice at some point and then he starts again with the snide remarks

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hola. hola. hola. am i visible?

67885 - 

you may think it's something insignificant but you're giving me confidence that i can have confidence in myself

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