I havent texted him about that in a year

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So he cares about you

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Thats not you giving him trauma thats you worrying those around you

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He still gets really freaked out when he thinks about it

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Clearly youre not useless if you have enough meaning in someones life for them to worry about you

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that is someone who cares, that is someone who will be distraught and broken if you die.

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I vented to him 5 hours a day for 3 years straight

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He convinced me out of suicide every other day

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Your friend idnt a therapist

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Isnt*

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I know

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Don't let his effort go to waste

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I tried therapy

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You cant use your friend as a crutch

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Clesrly your friend is worried. He sees meaning in you that you dont see in yourself.

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I don't need a crutch i need a fucking gun

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Thats a starting point.

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Personally i believe suicide is an ultimate testament to the pinnacle of human choice

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You can lean on a rifle

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Suicide is an ultimatum

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But suicide for something you can clesrly help

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Suicide is a choice a stupid one yes but a choice

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hihi-aubree

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Im in an abusive relationship with life bud

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Hihi

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don't do stupid shit

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Hi aubree :) -B

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Everyone is yellow

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i very cold

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Im fucking tired dude

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Im anemic

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So am i yellow i suffer from severe schizophrenia and CIPA

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I cant fucking sleep without monitors

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I have no one to talk to except fucking internet strangers

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I have so much meds and feel fucking trapped

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trappedbut even knlw suicide is stupid

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Me neither yellow -B

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If you have people who care

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I don't take my meds

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Then thats enough to stay alive

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