im so much older now and nothing has changed

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i never showed any proper signs

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other than the whole anxiety thing

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i wet the bed occasionally

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had panic attacks would hit myself until i bruised

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meltdowns or whatever

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one time i remember specifically i couldnt stop crying and i did laps in the backyard

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hitting my arms and scratching my legs

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all the bullshit child therapists i went to couldnt pick it out

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not even my mum

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she just got angry at me

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god that pisses me off

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nobody knows still

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i havent told anyone

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i wouldnt want to tell anyone even if the opportunity came up

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cause like it was mostly my fault

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everything was my fault

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i made the choice to have that role in my dads life

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even if i was just 9

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i chose to stay up with him

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and i chose to skip school even though i knew he would do shit

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Can someone please try again

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third times a charm

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i knew my mum would get angry

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i am not calling it the gulf of america

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and i knew i was going to die eventually

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Seriously

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Wha-Aphrodite

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Get me out of here man😭

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when i started pinching my skin with scissors nobody noticed

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i showed my mum and she told me i didnt want to go down that path and left it at that

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Can greenland pls buy us alreadyy

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or canada??

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skill issue

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Anyone

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my dad never hurt himself of course

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he only drank and did drugs that was the only harm he would do to himself

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his whole purpose was to take advantage of me

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in every way

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only me

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