snd ghe thing is its so emotionally difficult to be bloated rn im js gonna have a medicine to shit tdy😛😛😛 LMAO

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i often feel like i don't deserve to eat because ive done so many bad things

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I remember it very clearly

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red trust me its better to eat than not to eat

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im a failure fr

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It was a nightmare

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Idk if it was really SA or was i just uncomfy-

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It was a dream about my mom

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In that dream something bad happened to her

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well blue and everyone i am in recovery of anorexia and bulimia what reallly reality checked me was being sent to a mental asylum for a year i was strapped to a bed and they had to inject me with drug

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so i wouldnt die of a panic attack

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But i was able to wake up from it

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oh im so sorry green

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And my mom was there, comforting me that it won't happen, bc it was only a dream

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im only saying this so you know that feeling guilty over food is difficult i know but you can recover

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I was convinced, bc my mom assured me

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But why did that dream turn into reality?

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It was the only thing i feared the most

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i had this calorie-counting thing i think 3 or 2 years ago it wasnt bad i was eating good and okay and lost weight but afterwards i felt so ugh it just made me feel guilty for eating properly whenidid

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i am starting now at 16 to love myself i was sent to the asylum when i was 12 to 13 hen released

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I want to die right now

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awww im so glad you recoveredd

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oh purple <3

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well i relapsed last year

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I really can't go on

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so im trying to recover this month ...

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but its should get better i hope

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No matter how much i think of it, I don't have the strength nor courage to continue

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yess wishing the best for u

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I feel so numb

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i was diagnosed with eds and bodydismorphia so its a struggle

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It's like all my emotions have all been drained out

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but yeah my little brother keeps me going

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I'm so tired

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I can't sleep, even though I haven't slept for days

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my mind is keeping me wide awake

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So is my heart

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purple im a bit of a clairvoyant and im feeling that your mom is very upset you feel this way and that if you raise your vibratons she will get closer ive lost many loved ones so i know you dont have

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to believe me

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can you trust me on this one

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