Im so sad the year if shadow is over.. 😞

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Im so hungryy

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I had a nightmare that I witnessed someone commit suicide

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By jumping in front of a train. It wasn't any real person, thankfully, just someone my mind conjured up

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Still, it was scary

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i really hate my toxic parents

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idk what im missing that other people have

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but every time i have a relationship with someone i get so scared

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judgemental

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i wishg i could leave this helllhole of a home

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like i cant trust anyone

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even if they have similar problems like me

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im just very anxious all of the time

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im so done of having parents who are your literally your biggest enemies

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and when other people arent like that i get weird

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when other people arent stable

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my mom says everyone comes with their own flaws

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i dont want to get the feeling of worthlessness every and each moment of my existance

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but when people actively hurt me is it really that forgivable

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i dont want to feel how i felt when i was 11 ever again lol

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but somehow whenever i try and make a new friend i always do

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maybe its because im not that enjoyable

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i wish i had bvetter friends

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or i just try too hard to be normal

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but i dont think people like me all that much

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those who actally valued my presence

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so i guess its a defence thing in me judging people

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i wish i could get new parents

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this girl i used to be friends with i hit her up

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because i have no friends

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and im on holiday and havent done anything in the past 3 weeks

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she left me on read twice

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i dont want to deal with the narcississm of grown adults

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or like girls at school

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i usually eat alone and do everything alone

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but when i talk to people theyre nice

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hy are they insensitive and ucking annoying

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but after a while it gets weird

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