My life has been ruined by this

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I wish i could have gotten help sooner

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maybe if people acknowledged the fact i have anxiety i would be better

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instead of saying im jusg shy

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Its been like this for years

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i have no new friends

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i dont go out places on my own because of the anxiety

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And i dont have many peiole to hang out with

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so i stay at home doing nearly nothing

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i go to school and talk to no one

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its so frustrating

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i hate everything thats come out of it

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My mom seems mad about it

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try living with it

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she tells me to join clubs in school to help

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i do

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i end up just sitting there in silence and make a fool out of myself

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being the one random kid who never talks and just shows up

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I seriously have only said one sentence

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Everyone makes me so mad

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i wish they would understand

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Starting small conversations will NEVER work

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simply complimanting someone will NEVER work

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Counseling will probably never work

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i dont have a job because im too anxious to face anything

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its pathetic for someone my age

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i feel so guilty telling people ive never had a job

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I cant even ask for help because of it

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sometimes I have an actual question or need help and just dont ask becsuse i feel like im going to faint

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Like im having a heart attack and heat stroke at the same time

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its not a good feeling at all

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if only they understood that

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maybe i would be better now

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hi

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i can't make deep relations with anyone, it feels as if loosing someone or the risks that come along with it are taking a toll on my mind.

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why can't i bring myself to do or say something

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where's the chatgptard?

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asking AI for more stupid poems?

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"Thank you chatgpt, for making me feel more stupid"

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I want to kill myself. I really know i am a horrible person and that i deserve it. I cant bear to leave my family behind though. Im sorry

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