thats all i deserve anyways -seb

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why is it that i must escape my pathetic existence with this website and with sleep -seb

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how i wish that my dreams were real, that this was all one big nightmare and i had a mom that cared about me -seb

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i guess we dont always get what we want though -seb

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This be what happen when u have 90 tabs open vanna

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hi seb-meg

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meg! -seb

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You alright?-meg

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not really -seb

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i only managed around half of a meal -seb

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land like two snacks -seb

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and*

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i feel so pathetic and disappointing -seb

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You are making progress, you should be proud

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You arent

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at least im three days clean -seb

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Exactly, your making progress seb, thats a great thing

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i still feel like im stuck between a rock and a hard place though lol -seb

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like nothing i do will ever get me out of this mess -seb

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like i deserve this because im terrible -seb

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i kinda wish this was just some sick ass nightmare that my mind magicked up -seb

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I’m constantly on edge and I always think something is wrong. I’m sick of it.

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i can relate blue -seb

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I sont want to think snymore

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WHY WONT THIS FUCKING WEBSIRE WORK

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oh

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thinking is so tiring -seb

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and all thinking does is hurt me because most times when i think i spiral -seb

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the dark is nice, it doesnt hurt my eyes -seb

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my room is cold and quiet and dark and completely my own, and for that it is safe -seb

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it is my haven but when the light turns on that safety is suddenly gone, i can no longer hide from my life -seb

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i can no longer pretend that i am happy -seb

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that i enjoy living -seb

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living is such a chore -seb

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i wonder why no one else is online -seb

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mm i wish i could eat something -seb

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at the same time i dont -seb

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Last year, a rumor was started about me that i got pregnant. It was started by 2 girls. They said "clearly your pregnant because your getting fat"

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thats terrible red -seb

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are you doing better now? -seb

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