im just feeling very anxious

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Listening

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feverish aight speak on

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basically i didn't always grow up with my parents i grew up with my grandparents and they abused me a lot and once my mom found out she tried to get me back but it wasnt easy

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if covid 20 comes ack

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Oh

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Im sorry :(

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she had to fight with the state for over 9 years to try to get me back and im rlly grateful but the state moved me one day out of nowhere and i didnt get to say goodbye to anyone and take my stuff

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i had to restart everything bro

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This girl that liked me but i rejected is now posting things about getting heartbroken and shit like that, i feel bad but i dont like girls like that

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yellow man

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Well i didnt really reject her, she asked if i liked girls and i said no, then she said she was gonna ask me out

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youve been through sum shit

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i went from being abused to being like totally loved out of nowhere and its so odd because i dont know how to have a regular family

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sometimes idk if its from my parents sheltering me

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but anxiety consumes me when im unwell

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and my mom is 8 years sober so like she goes to meetings every day and every single time we argue i feel like shes going to stop being sober

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or feel oddly weird

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Doggy dick rapisthere

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so when i moved randomly i realized i didnt know how to do a lot of things like cook or clean or anything because i didnt really was teached these things

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so it causes a lot of issues with my family because im only 13 and i'm still learning

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but today my mom wanted to take us to the meeting she was hosting because its christmas right and we all get ready they say we are leaving at 340 its 341 and i grab my shoes right

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and they are all yelling saying they leaving without me and im like damn okay but then they open the door and let me through

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being a teenager

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Yellowz she's gonna expose her boobs if she gets drunk

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is wayy worse than i though

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and i just start crying because 30 mins before this i heard my mom on the phone explaining that i ruin her day everday and she hates me

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and she thought i couldnt hear her

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so we get to the meeting and i feel like shit because i refuse to leave the house without my makeup done bc you know insecurities and it gives me so much anxiety but isnt that serious so i thug it out

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damn yellow

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yellow it is serious

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when my mom talks my head spins

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and i lose energy

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seriously

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and then im thugging it out right still crying bc im a crybaby and then my parents are screaming at me saying that the only reason they fight is because of me

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like dont bring me into this

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what the fuckk

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they are blaming you

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for what

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andd then they go inside the meeting hall and im in the car crying and about 10 mins later my dad comes out and hes like im bringing you home and im like ok whatever

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