I cant stop fantasizing, now im an idiot.

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I dont know where to start

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and karoshi don't think down on yourself, within the past few days I've been on here you've helped so many people and provided support, and you don't deserve to think you aren't good enough - alex

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indiana jones lol -karoshi

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I have a really imperfect yet perfect life

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You are happy if you have a roof over your head and water

60736 - 

hes hit me but tbh i was being stubborn and some other stuff i feel like just isnt being fulfilled no matter how much we talk about it i also think im too mentally ill for a relationship

60741 - 

my parents snicker and sneer as they insult me. they are both abusive, why? i'm not good enough. my bestie likes my ex, why? i wasn't good enough. -karoshi

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happy is a feeling

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dating is a very idea

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you are good enough karoshi, dont let anyone say otherwise - alex

60734 - 

if u think ur too ill for a relationship u should break off i did the same thing bc if we don't heal before getting with people we'll just hurt each other

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i know but it was a while ago i just decided id be better with him than by myself like i always seem to end up

60741 - 

my friends are in relationships and yet im still single. why, i'm not good enough. -karoshi

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I just want someone to hold me and tell me that i belong to them.

60736 - 

no karoshi, its because that just happens, its not you - alex

60734 - 

i don't feel enough. i can still do better, and i try to be better. but it rots away at me. -karoshi

57585 - 

its better if you stay single because if you self deprecate so much it wont hurt only yourself anymore and they'll have to keep comforting you

60737 - 

yeah i am but im having mixed feelings i am not a bad person i have no intention of breaking anyones heart

60741 - 

I want to drink more to sleep more

60736 - 

but weve been together 3 years

60741 - 

you don't need to be better you just need to be you karoshi- alex

60734 - 

maybe if i just killed myself id never have to hurt anybody anymore

60741 - 

who am i anymore? -karoshi

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its better to strive to heal so you can be happy with only yourself as much as with others

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etc

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Im sorry

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im just a fucking teenager, spending their useless time as a little "girl". -karoshi

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In sorry doesnt fix a thing

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good question karoshi. I wouldnt know the answer to that - alex

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I will be here

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Im sorry im sorry

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i don't know myself. -karoshi

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so i should just leave?? its gonna break his heart and he wants us to get through my trauma together but i just feel like i just cant

60741 - 

I will be reincarnated as a slug

60736 - 

ive started starving myself to see where it goes

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