Fair

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I wish I had more people interact with me like Im a person but I just feel invisible sometimes or like idk a wall prop

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of course, i maybe a cynic but you may want to think double on that.

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Probably because people think Im autistic or something, no aura

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yeah, i do have a partner but shits going on and ive been made fun of my whole life for my looks and i just never know if im actually attractive anymore

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same.

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At least you have a partner to call. I use to like my life beong single but rn I dont even know.

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Yeah, I grew up a fatass kid and I still have disordered ass eating and have no idea how anyone could even see me in a vaguely attractive way

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i hate the thing of glow ups like just because i might be attractive now doesnt mean itll get rid of years of bullying. I cant see myself as pretty.

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did you ask your boyfriend about it?

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Thats fair, my OCDs got me wondering if I even feel anything so its an opposite feeling

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Yeah

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that's so fair.

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I wish I had more energy to spend on my apperance, I would like to work out an dhave good skincare but I dont even want to get out of bed

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oh well.. mines.. thinking I should be better off dead.

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You dont have energy or like you dont have the time?

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No energy I just lay in bed or sit at my computer watching youtube

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I had to quit my job

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why so?

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are you doing fien now, tho?

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i also have disorderd eating and its like if i dont eat im not in recovery but if i do im fucking fat and lazy again. I lost weight but i cant get out of that mentality.

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fine?

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Real yellow, thats really tough

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Im alright now but I still dont have energy to clean or feed myself

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I'm really so sorry, Mine, I think my empathys old burned out.

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My sister has been help

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Cant recognize myself anymore

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Thats okay

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Im sorry

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how so? she's been helping you clean up?

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I then remembered the guy or couple who referred to themselves as siblings

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Nah she just brings me up some of whatever dinner is made or makes me the occassional grilled cheese

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Yuck

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mab, they really left me alone only for them to

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Oh just like how you used to like said so?

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So she's like visiting your house and all?

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I mean room sorry

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Yeah, I know but they do like using metaphors so

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ew you just reminded me of how in middle school i had a mutual friend who was in love with his cousin and had a porn folder called "girls that look like nevaeh"

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ugh, what's that?

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