I wish i could explain to them why i hate it. Only one of them knows and its such a stupid fucking reason

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For about 5-6 years i had an intense fixation on cannibalism. Id only consume media that had cannibalism in it. It turned into a really unhealthy thing.

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I just eecently in the past year and a half stopped consuming that media. Ill look back at it in a constructive way, but not anything genuine at legnth.

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Idk though. Its one of those things i respect but its nerveracking trying to interact with it.

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Feeling down

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This is very weird

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Maybe it’s just my mental illness but everything is just too much. Everything is so out of control. I feel nuts.

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This is so fucking annoying. I cant. The smallest things feel so big altogether. I dont know how to handle my emotions.

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Im meant to book a plane flight with my dad for my brother, boyfriend and I. The prices are outrageous.

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alone with my family members and no one to talk to in person. Last time I went back (roughly 2 years ago), I nearly overdosed there. It’s too much for me to be isolated.

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My family members aren’t that forgiving, in all honesty. I’m transgender. Nobody talks about this stuff in an asian household.

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So, being in a space where my identity is not being validated + having no one to comfort me in person? It’s going to be the death of me.

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shorturl.at/Jkz54

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Throw in a mix of a mood disorder and unhealthy coping mechanisms, I’m doomed.

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We considered rescheduling to April holidays, but my boyfriend has a surgery he needs to go overseas for.

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I honestly don’t know what to do. It’s such a big fuckup. I was so excited too.

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We’re planning on going during December and January. I only have two weeks of school left before I’m free.

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My parents are divorced, so I dont even think my mum would even consider lending my dad some financial help.

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And even though it isn’t related, I have an english presentation tomorrow. First to present, 8:50AM, high standards because I’m in an extension class. I just want to die.

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I feel like im holding up bricks on my shoulders. I missed my therapy session this week so I’ll have a lot to say next time.

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This is all just a big cluster of problems. Dealing with them is so ass and it’s giving me a fucking headache

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Not to mention my boyfriend’s father is strict as fuck and literally doesn’t allow him to do anything. His mother is different. This is so fucking annoying.

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I cant even begin to wrap my head around the 10,000 dollar price. If we went in April, it’d be 5000, which is manageable. But my BF has his surgery during that time.

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There are so many fucking deadends.

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I just wanted to go back with him and show him around. He’s been just as eager as I am. I need to let my mum know that I’m not coming if he doesnt.

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I feel like vomitting, honestly. I’ve been so stressed about this it’s giving me such a nasty ass headache.

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I felt hopeless before the election, but since Trump got elected I've just been feeling like I've got no future. Im either going to drown in economic ruin or get arrested for being queer. I'm screwed.

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And I need to deal with this issue now. The longer we hold off, the more expensive shit becomes.

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I fucking hate the economy.

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Boomers are so fucking stupid it's unbearable, like I'm pretty sure that entire generation has lead poisoning or something

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I dont even know what to do. This isnt something therapy can help me with. This is just shitty planning and fucking money.

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10,000?????????? 10,000 is fucking nuts

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I thought it’d be a little merciful if it came to under 18’s pricing. Honestly, I have no idea. My dad hasnt even told me.

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This is making me want to relapse so badly. And it seems so insignificant in the grand scheme of things, but it’s been making me feel so distressed.

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I dont know anymore. Literally what can I do. I’m only 15.

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Dude, I’m back again. My boyfriend’s dad is so fucking racist, it’s not even a joke.

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It’s nuts to me. Not even just the country, but the people?

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Sure our country is 3rd world but even admitting that is so insane to me

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honestly, whatever. i dont even know what i can do about all of this. i need to jump off a cliff or whatever

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Hello

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