so obv i blamed myself bc i was stupid

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nah it was like a 20 minute drive though

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real

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My friend’s gonna be mad when they find out I didn’t actually adopt the stray kitten

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no i didnt mean long distance i meant distant relationship when ur in a relationship but not close at all

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anyways it got to the point where i was so tired of being cancelled and i just wanted to actually talk fo her abt it

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yeahyeah that was it

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but as soon as i asked her what was up

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she said we should break up

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n stuff

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I have the dedication and education to care for a kitten but I still don’t know if I’m capable

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i find out a month later that she was with another guy that whole time

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which was nice

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and anyway obviously me being the person i am i got kinda bad anxiety from that

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I don’t have a house

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yeah thats probably why she was distant, but good thing u found out about it atleast

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so u know about her real side

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which made me feel like a dickhead bc i started overthinking hard n having trust issues

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well save up money or wait till u have an income red bc they need money for food and vets

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like whenever she was just on her phone too long when we were hanging out id get rlly anxious

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u deserved better blue

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bc thats what my ex would do when we would hang out

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i startwd having like panic attacks a few months ago

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He said we could do something as a little date and yet I cant even get his attention for 1 minute

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but my gf knows about it and she really is amazing

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did u stop having them?

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i want to be healthy

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yeah u deserve that man i hope ur gf treats u well

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shes helped me through it mostly and shes just been so supportice despite the stress it puts on her

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ive slowed down more recently

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but dont fully rely on her basivally get attached

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bc ive been on meds now ive been diagnosed

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i know im trying

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its good to be in a relationship and have a good partner and im sure shes treating u well

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my panic attacks have mostly gone i only have them every few weeks which is good

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and ofc u deserve all that good

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but always be careful no matter what

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i hope so we've been together nearly 8 months now

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thanks g

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I still want to adopt this kitten, if I don’t there are chances it’ll get eaten and whatnot

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