i come from a nightshift, i didnt sleep, im upset as hell and instead of trying to be there for me, my gf just goes to sleep

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Then say no. If they make you feel that way, say no. Tell them you dont fuck with people like that anymore.

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why is everything more important than me

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ik she needs sleep but she literally slept the whole night

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i just wanted to not be alone

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why am i forced to always be alone

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why does nobody truly love and care for me

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im always no bullshit with people like that but i only find out things after ive already become close with them

82367 - 

hey cyan sounds like you need to voice yourself to your close ones, ometimes they dont always know how youre feeling

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do i really suck this bad

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i've told them

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i told my gf

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purple do u just accept all the people who come in your life

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all i get is passively aggressive response

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no

82367 - 

she says she cares but i dont feel like she does

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im so selective with my friends too

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Then give yourself time to figure them out. If you dont know them, find out who they are.

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Its not sureproof, but it helps.

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at this point i have like 3 close friends

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i dont ever feel like anyone's priority, while i prioritize the people i love most of the time

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uh oh... i hate to say it cyan but she sounds like someone whos not genuine

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i used to have 20ish

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is this life? just endless loneliness because everyone truly only cares about themselves and nobody else?

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espeically if theyre your partner, they should not be making you feel like youre going through this alone

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i constantly get intrusive thoughts that these people are gonna end up being assholes too

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I need a break.

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even the people they say they love

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i get so anxious

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But i dont wanna stop.

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sometimes i wish i didnt know anyone

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i feel so selfish for wanting someone to prioritize me over sleep

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but i literally do that with the people i love

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Hey, purple..?

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i dont blame them its just im annoyed

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Can i ask you a question..?

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rather be dead than deal witb this shit

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yeah

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Do you know.. yourself?

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if i killed myself one of these times would she even be upset? would she even be sorry for not being with me when i needed her?

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