getting called to check over criminals is never gonna get easier

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i had to check over a rapist once because his victim fought back

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i told my friends today that im not doing good, that im harming again

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i almost wanted to tell him how bad that was but i figured id let the cops do it

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my buddy is an officer and we have to work together a lot

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they just said that i wanted attention, and that it was probably just cause i was getting healthier and needed a new thing to whine about

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Hey

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but this job also caused some serious issues for me

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hi coral

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but its not i dont want attention, i want to die

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What

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im seeing a therapist weekly and am on lots of meds so im stable

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I though this website made for venting

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it is coral

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Oh

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Kinda confused sorry

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you can vent if you want

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i was ranting about my job dont mind that

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i was ranting about something else haha

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thats what this website is for

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just rant

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just been having a rough last few weeks on the job

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lots of criminals and victims

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English isnt my first language so bear with me

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ah same here dont worry

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But i really feel fkd up mentally

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me too

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alr wel imma continue my rant too

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I feel isolated. My parents want me to engage to someone I have no emotional pull towards. And I don't want to waste two years of engagement with her just to say no.

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i think im addicted to caffeine, but i dont even know if that is a real addiction

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And i feel really fed up

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It is green

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my therapist wants to admit me for a three addiction program, but i dont believe im addicted

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There is withdrawal effect too

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they say i have a self harm addiction, a screen and phone addiction and a caffeine addiction

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but i dont believe that

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lots of people wake up with a headache that doesnt go away untill they've had their "morning coffee"

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And I don't want to hurt that person or lead them on. The bigger problem is that I'm in love with somebody I'm not sure they reciprocate back. Am I being ungrateful or picky?

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I hate depression i believe that i cant escape this episode

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