Its an odd thing the brains will do to survive

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I could have been a better person, but I am not sure what she did warrants destroying years

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Ik it feels pointless but

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We do... whenever I end up on this website... i usually go by qiqi because she's the character i stemmed from....

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but.. i'm not on here often so..

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I wish i could help more but i barely understand us

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Having alters hurts, i dont know how others survive, i know its hard but fuck

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a system too yellow..?

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Sorry red i couldn't see your text

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It's okay... i was just asking if you were a system too..?

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I honestly think so

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There's four of us

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thats... i think the definition of a system is more than one distinct personality... i forgot though...

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From what i understand it is

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Im pretty sure it is

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I didn't know there was a name for it until 2 years ago

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im sorry... I dont remember stuff well... even stuff I care a lot for...

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But it made sense when i looked into it

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Its ok

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I can't say that's what's going on fort certain though since i haven't sought psychiatric help

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It would be nice to be my own person... have my own body instead of sharing one... had no trauma to hold....

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Being in one body... would feel... warm... not freezing and like I'm getting choked...

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But it matches what's been going on in my head since childhood

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Im sorry

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Sometimes psych help can be hard to get, a lot of other stuff has to get tested too, some requirement from some doctors if they dont know much about it

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That's just... dreams I guess...

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But its not impossible

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I wish it was that simple cyan but there are people around me

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Who would take over my life if given the chance

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I finally feel safe and in control somewhat

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I cant risk it

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sorry.. I may switch out... if this is bye for me for now... I guess... stay safe.... and... I'll try to remember this...

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You too red

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or qiqi

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Yeah thats fair yellow

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Bye red

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thank you yellow. that means a lot.

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I hope you find peace

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The mental help in the area im in is a joke too

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It took a lot to tell my therapist and such about it, like i finally wasnt with my parents so i could speak freely, but it feels good to talk about it

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