indian

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ik cyan, am scared of dying...........but i dont wanna live like this

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Your parents if they care want you to make good marks to get through school

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whats the plan after that?

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yes exactly that

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but they're going about it the wrong way

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then they want me to get into a good college. if i get good marks, they say i prolly will get scholarship

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and thats a way to stability and safety right?

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they want me to become what i wanted to.

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yes

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im sure they know that too

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i wanted to be a cosmologist. now it feels more like their dream than mine. and no, they never pressured me for anything

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related to what i wanna become

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it doesn't excuse how theyre treating you

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but theyrr under pressure too

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but..........they love me right?

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yea.......so isnt the fault mine for not being enough?

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I think thry do, thry just domt have the right way in their head to express it

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no

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its theirs for not learning to do better and your society's for

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that being a norm

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really its not worth wasting time on me yellow. u dont need to care.

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thats not to say dont work toward your goals at all

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i do care though

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No one asked, sorry, but i think i want a taquito 😔💔 also i agree with yellow, none of this is on you cel

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its not wasted to me

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Way i see it

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np cyan, also idk.....

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People care about you cel even if u dont knwo it or them

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they love you, otherwise at your age youd likely be married off

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but they couldn't have come from much better circumstances

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exactly. i dont work for my goals. see? what i am doing? venting. and thruout the day am js sitting and reading stories and shit

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You need a healthy balance

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nah i dont think its legal anymore, plus no one would marry someone like me.

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Its very much legal or ignored in some parts of inda

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india

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i dont even wanna do anything now anymore. yes i used to be a topper. now am avg. and when i try they say i dont. so whats the point? rather if i dont, i will get less in boards and an excuse to kms

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Can you change what you want to be?

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You're only 14

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Life is short as is and youll never know what could have been if you don't live it

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