i feel it when i see myself getting that meat knife from the kitchen and just slicing my head in half

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okay

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<okay now i feel numb, thats why i wasnt able to provoke me any pain

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do you feel sad

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<fuck

94671 - 

when u remember it

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or carving open my moms head from behind ehen shes sleeping

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do u feel angry

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how do you feel

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should be call cops on yellow

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I survived a suicide attempt and now my tinnitus is 10x worse :(

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those sound like traumatic memories and intrusive thoughts

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oh im so sorry cyan....

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<sorry to hear that cyan

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im picturing myself going to my moms room and just stabbing her until the bones in my hsnds break

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okay yellow,

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you should try to go to a therapist

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i judt saw it now

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these violent memories have clearly affected u

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u need a therapist.

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<whatever being numb is better than getting my melodic dramatic ass emotions

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have you told anyone about this?

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they are so vivid

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i dont think im THAT dramatic

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hiiiiiiiiiiiiii - bela

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<you are not

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hi belaaaa -marissa

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<hii

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(m.m)

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Is there really a point in living?

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yes there is white

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<lowkey yes

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LIVE TO FIND IT

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right now im seeing the veins in her throat squashing under the knife

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ooop

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okay yellow, you desperately need to talk to someone.

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its s few seconds but they feel real

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she needs to die i think

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who needs to die

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yep call the cops on yellow

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